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My name is Wendy. I grew up going to a Christian church with my family, and trusted that wherever my life went, God was leading. Then I went to University where they taught about evolution - not just taught, but taught every subject as if it were fact. My thought at the time was "Universities cannot be wrong about this or they would not teach it, so what I was taught by the church and my family must be wrong." And just like that, I lost my faith. I didn't even want to lose my faith, it was just gone, I no longer believed God existed. I thought that religion was just something used by people to control the masses.
Right after this, a good friend of mine died in front of me while we were studying for a Chemistry exam. His heart just stopped beating - they never did figure out why. This was very distressing to me, as since I no longer believed in God, my friend was just 'gone' as if he never existed, and never would again. You would think that this would have sent me searching, but it did not.
For the next twelve years, I lived with no thought of God, ridiculed people who believed, and sank deeper and deeper into clinical depression. On the outside my life was great - I had an awesome career in Information Technology, moving my way up the corporate ladder, I owned my own house, car, had great friends, but inside I had nothing except despair and emptiness. Trips to a couple of psychologists did nothing - I had no clue why I was depressed, and neither did they.
And then God sent me my husband, Adam. I did not know at the time that God sent him, but I 'knew' as soon as we met that he was my husband - this from a person who believed that marriage was just a way for the government to collect some money. Through Adam, God led me back to Him by giving me an opportunity to pick up a Bible to 'see what it says for myself'. From the first two verses, God showed me the lies I had been told and opened my eyes to His Truth. Do I still have trials in my life? Yes, but they lead to good - to a closer and deeper relationship with my Creator and Lord, and a hope that leads to life, and not to a life of despair and emptiness that leads to death.
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